Once upon a time I had a sexy body.
Okay, I've never been skinny. I've always been a curvy girl - not fat - just curvy. Never had a problem with weight, I was a size 6 from high school to university. I felt good and did not give a damn about what people think. I used to think that if you don't have fun and go with it, you would be miserable. Yup but that was back then... when I had that sexy body.
Today's confession: Now I feel fat. Like a sack of potatoes.
Part of me does not want to admit this all to you. Honestly, the confession leaves me feeling just a bit too vulnerable for my taste. Still, I need to admit it here since it is a way to admit it to myself.
It all started when I graduated from university and got a job sitting at a desk for 8 hours a day. Slowly but steadily, I gained the weight. Within one year, my clothes stopped fitting me. As I still was in a good range of weight and looked good, my attitude was on the lines of Who Cares.
Another year passed.
It seemed like there was an endless supply of food at work - bagels, donuts, muffins, cake, ice cream... I don't even love those things (I don't have a sweet tooth), but come on...yummy and tempting no? When it was time to go home, all I did was eat dinner, watch TV and go to bed. Do the math.
Within the last two years, I have gone from weighing 145 lbs (I'm 5'6" by the way) to weighing a wopping 175 lbs. From size small to large. From size 6 to 12.
I have gained 30 pounds. Great.
Here's a recent picture of me:
Where's my 'I don't care' attitude again? I just woke up one morning and suddenly something didn't feel right. You know when you have this impression that nothing fits exactly the way you want it to. Then when you want to wear something too big that hides your body, you look even fatter. Oversized clothing? Only skinny people can look good in them.
I will definitely bring sexy back! Follow my journey to Skinnyville. :)
To be continued...
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