Letting go.

Dear Journal, 

Confession time. While I was writing my post 2013: Looking back, I realized few things... First, I realized that I'm in a constant state of striving. 

I'm not saying that striving is bad. You all know how I always talk about goals, achievements, and stuff. It's crucial to have them and to work for them. What I'm saying is I'm in a constant state of striving... too much. 

So yes, this is my other resolution: Letting go. I realized that I have to make changes to the inner me - gee that's sound spiritual. 

I spend hours wracking my brain for how I can make things in my life better: my relationships, my dreams, my finances, how to attract more readers to my blog, get rich... yeah, this is exhausting!! And naturally all of that striving led to comparing myself to others, and before I knew it I had make-believe competitions going on in my head. That's crazy. I'm crazy. As much as I thought these were positive things that would improve my life, they were all based on fear and worry. Fear of not being perfect enough. Everybody strives to be perfect in one way or another. We strive to have the "perfect" friendships, family, job, hobbies, etc. 

I don't want to be rushing through my life, ticking off achievements and competing. Will anybody give me a gold star at the end? 

Let go of trying to be perfect, and focus on just being the best person you can be. Let go of the past, and don't dwell on mistakes: learn, live, and love (especially yourself). Sometimes, we lose sight of what we have and how truly living feels in this moment. We forget where we have been and how far we have come. 

So yeah, I realize what I need to drop trying to get it all done perfectly. It's okay to strive but strive for progress, not perfection. I have to accept myself and enjoy my days because life is too short. 

So people, enjoy life - including all of its imperfections.